I basically grew up with him and him with me. Our journey has been long and hard, but here we are still holding on. The reasons, not sure. Maybe love, maybe fear, maybe stability, comfort. Whatever it is, we're here together, as a family. Things seem to mature, grow, improve and then all of a sudden a u turn happens on our path. But I guess that's how it has always been, I should be use to it by now.
I look all around me and I see marriages dissolving left and right. Couples who seemed so in love breaking up. It's scary and confusing and that's why as I hit this 10 year mark I can't help but feel triumphant. I can't help but feel like I'm a winner, like David and I are fighters. (Gosh, trying not to cry as I type this.) We've been through so much harshness, and we continue to go through it, yet we don't give up. I don't know if that's good or bad, but I think couples who fight through it all should get recognition! :)
I can't believe how much I still love him. I tell him all the time that it's weird how I still want to spend every second of my day with him. How when he's at work I miss him and think about him. How when he arrives home from work I still get like a giddy kid on Christmas morning, I get butterflies in my stomach as I wait for him to come through the door. I look at him and can't believe how such a HOT guy was attracted to little ol' me! How I don't mind his growing belly, I actually think it's sexy on him! I love his pointy eyebrows, his straight and pointy nose, his red cheeks, his freckles on his shoulders, his strong legs, his humor, the way he explains things to me everytime I ask him a question. His smile, his seriousness and the love he has for his kids. How he kisses their feet and bites their ears. How he tries not to let his emotions come out but then his eyes start to get watery. I love how he hits the fatty part of my arms, makes fun of my funny ears, picks at my black heads, and spanks my booty! ;) Yes he's also full of things I hate, but oddly enough I think I could live with all those bad things but I couldn't live without all his good things. Does that even make sence?
I love thinking about the day we first saw eachother. How he stood there, I can see it in my mind. The way he stood there holding his basketball just looking at me while I practiced my dance for my quinceñera. He looked sooooooooo cute! I was hooked.
As I sit here typing this, I don't know how the future will look for us or our marriage. I don't know if things will ever change, if our marriage will ever mature or grow. But I do know that we won't ever quit. No matter what, cause he's proven to me that we're not quitters! Hopefully in the future I will be blogging about our 15 year anniversary and hopefully it will be full of change and love and happiness! Of persaverance and endurance!
Jose David Mende Rodriguez, I love you with all my heart. Regardless of what you think or of what I might have said and done, no matter how our life has been, I want you to know I love you and I regret ever hurting you at all. I don't regret falling in love with you and I will endure til the end with you madly in love.
Here are my gifts from him.
I love froggies!
And my beautiful plants. He's always bought me orquids. From the first flower he gave me, it has always been beautiful orchids. 
And then ofcourse, proving his uniqueness, he got me this venus fly trap plant. 
Our anniversary weekend was full of movies at the cinema and eating, our favorite activities since the day we met!
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